I love how snow has a way of shutting most all activity down…
the beauty of living in the south. I’ve had lots of much needed quiet moments to myself
with just Jesus and I. One of the more recent ones come to mind now…
My dad and I have been trying to figure out if mom is
getting worse or not, and I find myself worrying about this… as if my worrying
can somehow slow down this disease or control it somehow. But in one of my
still moments yesterday, I heard the Lord say to me, “Can you entrust her to
Me?” I stopped my racing thoughts to ponder that question for a moment… because
when He speaks, things have a way of coming to a halt… the wind, the waves, and
especially the human striving. And, I finally answered, “Yes, Lord. What other
choice do I really have?” I know that He holds my mom’s life in His hand, and I
know that surrendering my worries and even my vain attempt to try to control
this situation through my worrying is going to be a continual surrender… a
process that He wants me to go through so that I learn, really learn, what it
means to trust Him. I’m learning that it’s really one thing to say that I trust
Him, but another to actually exercise this trust by living out this life of faith. My prayer is that I surrender to Him all those things that do not
really belong to me anyway… every day for as long as I live here.
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